i wish

I wish the day would last longer than nights.
I wish my life isn't like this.
I wish you weren't so far away.
I wish i was happy.
I wish , i wish

4th dec 2004

he's gone like the wind

one day i got home,as usual i would call for my dogs (humpee and beary) . Only one came."humpee ! humpee! " i panicked.

Still he didnt appear.i began to worry.

Then my mom appeared , i asked her where humpee is.
She replied "SPCA took him ".
Man, how could she! how could they! i miss him terribly..i feel so alone.Having beary around is good,but humpee makes it twice the fun.

I woke up one morning to find a jack rusell at da garden..
he was chained to the bench with no food or water.Who could be so cruel!? immediately i released him from the clutches of doom,he and beary were frolicking in the sun. they look happy.They made me happy.
I decided to name him humpee,he reminds me of humpty dumpty.Both are equally clumsy and cute.

I grew fond of him.Humpee and beary would chase the rabbits.K9 Twin terror!
Very often, my younger bro and i would bring the dogs to da playground at a park in da vicinty.
There,we had fun.we would push da dogs down the slides at da playground.they liked it:)

i found out that it was my idiotic older bro who found humpee a month ago,he brought it home. My mom told him to call da SPCA to take humpee anyway.

I protest,but to no avail.They were deteremined to get rid of my furry friend.
Im very sure humpee will be happy here,furthermore if nobody adopts him within a certain period of time.he will be terminated ! : (

Any living thing deserve to live.Especially the animals at SPCA,they deserve a home.

Humpee,where-ever you are,i miss you.You filled the holes in my life.

1st dec 2004

insomnia

13 oct 2004

Music is the only sound floating through the darkness.
"Ive been such a fool , but i played it so cool.No more pain, no more taint..."
The itching in my head is expanding.Concepts and possibilities are everywhere.Feelings are taking on less importance and weight is dropping from my being.Thoughts becomes crystal clear in the still of the night.

I cant sleep tonight. i cant sleep most nights.There are too many things i want to do , and i cant stop thinking about them.I cant seem to shut myself up.

How can i sleep when i know people are doing things right now?Working on a construction site,installing pipes,guards doing their patrols,Kids from the other side of the globe playing football.A husband,father just got back from work who cant wait to tell his family about this promotion.You name it..

Things that are creative , helpful-changing the world for the better ,adding or depositing to the overdrawn bank account of the human spirit.
But most importantly some people are skateboarding right now,in the middle of the night,while i sit on the roof staring at the stars.

Those who tap the energy needed to skateboard at night will be rewarded with extrasensory sensations that come with an open mind and limited light.The thrill and purity of purpose is undiluted.

Sometimes not sleeping isn't so bad.Nothing ever seems the same in the morning.

-excerpt from my journal
14th of October 1999

lost and found

i wrote this in 2002,while i was recuperating from a knee operation,i was distraught.i thought i would never get to skate again.

i was eating dinner in the kitchena moment ago and the thought of making this ink and paper entity live forever came into my head.so here it is,it's life extended by many years.

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i have lived just to ride on you,
you are like air to me ,essential,
yet you're artificial.
Joy,laughter and tears,
these are some of the harvest.

i gave up worldy things for you.
In return i was made a king.
A kingdom, of ledges and curbs.
Those jagged and ridged edges are emblems of my reign
Euphoria...
I hone in supremacy!
As dark knights come , like cowards other kings and i ran.
But in another time, another world, we know we dominate.

A moment ago,you are my everything.
Now , are you something?
You gave me nothing but broken bones and a broken heart.

Like drugs, i'm onto you.
And like fire ,you burnt me bad.
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3rd oct 2004

rollercoasters

i was watching tv and this ad featuring rollercoasters came on during the interval,not that it was advertising rollercoasters..
anyway i miss been on a rollercoaster,its been years since i last clamber on to one.
i was at disneyworld and this hotel called "new york new york" at Las vegas many years ago,they had really awesome rollercoasters that guarantee to make one puke.
These giants toys arent cheap but if ive da money and land..i will get one that snakes around my huge house: )

29 sept 2004

the day a blog was born

im your father,You(blog) and i are gonna have many grec years ahead. ok,look at this before doing anything else e.g touching yourself,pay bills,eat a booger or whatsoever fuck.

29 sept 2004

D	Dirty
E	Extreme
R	Responsible
R	Relaxed
I	Important
C	Clumsy
K	Keen

name acronym
http://www.go-quiz.com/acronym/acronym.php

to a new begining

i will be importing entries from my old blog laboriously , the next few entries will be from the old blog.

http://veganhoe.multiply.com/journal

the beginning

i stayed in highland walk ,kovan for 17 year till i moved to seletar hills.
Highland walk holds many fond memories i would never trade anything for .

if i've a time machine , i would relive those moments and if it's possible, secure a place there permanently